Over the past few weeks I have come to realize that peace is a commitment. I made a decision to give my will and my life to the care of a power greater than myself more than a decade ago. And I am a Buddhist. Therefore, non-violence and peace are the principles that I want to practice.
It has been easy to keep my commitment to peace when life is normal and all is well. However, I have given up my commitment at the drop of a hat on many occasions when people “don’t act right” or “everything goes wrong”.
In other words: when it’s convenient I keep my commitment to my principals.
However, I have realized that I must keep my commitment even when it is difficult.
Not doing so is like saying “Oh I’m not going to drink anymore but I’m still going to the bar every night.”
It’s an inside job.
And if I am truly going to remain open I cannot fight against anything or anyone. I have to accept what comes and feel what I feel about it without trying to make it be something that it isn’t. If something or someone is not good for me I simply need to walk away instead of attempting to bend it or them to my will.
This doesn’t mean that I’m achieving saint hood or that I think I’m better than anyone else.
Honestly, I’m just tired of fighting. My inner peace means too much.