The recent mass shooting Pulse in Orlando FL, affected me more than the other mass shootings that have occurred within the past few years. (The fact that I can even refer to there being more than on mass shooting within the past few years disturbs me deeply) This mass shooting hit close to home for me and every other person who considers themselves a part of the LGBT community at large.
A lot of information has surfaced about Omar Mateen of late.
- Over the past few weeks evidence has surfaced that Omar Mateen was acting out of revenge and not as part of Isis as he stated in his phones calls with law enforcement.
- A former lover of Omar’s who referred to himself as Miguel, told Univision in an exclusive interview that Mateen had had sex with him as well as two men from Pulse. One of the men may have been HIV+.
- In an interview with the New York Times,Sitora Yusufiy, Mateen’s first wife, described Mateen as incredibly abusive and says she was only able to escape with the help of her family.
- There is some evidence that Mateen mentioned researching ant-psychotic medications the day of his attack on Pulse.
I have no idea why anyone would commit such a heinous act against innocent people.
But I have a theory about hate and violence.
My theory is that there is a cycle of hate that leads to horrendous behavior.
I believe the cycle goes something like this:
- A person feels bad about themselves. They are deeply insecure.
- They begin seeking ways to lash out at other people to feel better about themselves and release anger.
- They begin to feed on the anger of lashing out. It becomes like a high. It gives them the feeling of being superior and inflates their ego.
- Being angry feels good and powerful. It gives them the sense that they have power thus it allows them to ignore their feelings of insecurity. This feeling of power becomes addictive.
- The more they participate in the cycle of hate, the more their behavior has to escalate because it takes more to “feed” their addiction. Thus leading to increasingly violent acts.
Make no mistake; violent acts come in many forms.
For example, Donald Trump’s self-centered response to the Pulse massacre on Twitter was a violent act.
Every church group who has used and will use this heinous tragedy to justify protesting at the funerals of the victims is committing an act of violence.
I know the question on everybody’s minds is: What do we do about this?
I think we need to practice greater love and tolerance.
I believe that how we show up in life affects the our world as a whole. I believe this more that I believe anything else. One act of kindness by one person ripples out into the world.
The brilliant Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. knew this truth and spent his all to short life working to make the world understand it.
“The ultimate weakness of violence is that it is a descending spiral, begetting the very thing it seeks to destroy.
Instead of diminishing evil, it multiplies it.
Through violence you may murder the liar,
but you cannot murder the lie, nor establish the truth.
Through violence you may murder the hater,
but you do not murder hate.
In fact, violence merely increases hate.
So it goes.
Returning violence for violence multiplies violence,
adding deeper darkness to a night already devoid of stars.
Darkness cannot drive out darkness:
only light can do that.
Hate cannot drive out hate: only love can do that “
What we can do is show up in life with kindness and love even when it is the most difficult thing to be done. The time for justifiable anger has passed. It isn’t making our world any better.
I know we can’t change any one. I certainly can’t make people stop hating people like me and saying we will all “burn in hell” or that the Orlando attack was the “will of God”.
But what I do know is this: If I hate I am a part of the problem. If I allow myself to put other people down for any reason I am getting into the cycle of hate. I believe that would be the ultimate mistake.